[fandom] I will never be clean again.

[changeling]

I feel so very, very dirty.

I was reading the second installment of "How to make Remus Lupin cry" when this delightful story entered my head.

So I wrote it. And posted it in the comments over there. So I figured I might as well drop it here.
May the Good Lord have mercy upon my soul.




Harry isn't quite sure how much longer he can keep doing this. And there are only so many hairs in Sirius Black's hairbrush.

He hasn't told Hermione or Ron because he doesn't think Ron would understand, and he knows Hermione wouldn't approve. Hermione makes the Polyjuice potion for him every week, and doesn't say a word about it, but there is accusation in her dark eyes.

And he doesn't dare tell anyone else at Grimmauld Place because if they realised how broken Remus Lupin was, then they wouldn't let him in on any Order business at all, and that would probably kill him.

So every Saturday night he walks into Remus's bedroom quite a bit taller, and lies there on the bed passively staring at the ceiling, while his old professor fucks him and calls him by someone else's name and, sometimes, cries.

Harry isn't quite sure how much longer he can keep doing this.





And if that's not enough to convince you that I am undeserving of life, you can always read the Disfigured Draco story. Mine is part 18.

Comments

[notfudge.livejournal.com]

That's awesome.

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! *loves*

*whispers* Read Disfigured Draco, then.

[naewinter.livejournal.com]

Oh dear.

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

What? What?

[naewinter.livejournal.com]

By the time I got to And there are only so many hairs in Sirius Black's hairbrush, I knew what you meant by I feel so very, very dirty. =D

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

But in a good way, I hope. :D

[naewinter.livejournal.com]

Yup. =D

[chn-breathmint.livejournal.com]

O_O

Uh. O_O

Wonderfully disturbing fic, that.

- Mel

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :D

[apiphile.livejournal.com]

Ouch, man. That's a lot of ouch for something so short.

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

Excellent-- I mean, thanks. :D

[buhfly.livejournal.com]

*wince*

That's painful. *claps*

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

*bows*

[oh-contraire.livejournal.com]

Guh. So disturbing and perfect and did I say disturbing (in a good way) for something so short.
Mmm. Remus angst.

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

*grins* Thanks! I think of it as Harry angst, but it's both really. :D

[oh-contraire.livejournal.com]

Of course :) Harry angst too, then. I just tend to fixate on the Remus angst a little, because he's so pretty when he's traumatised (TM)

Yeah. The more the merrier angstier. ^_^

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

Hee! Exactly.

...which kinda makes me want to write a longer fic including this and that gen fic I did awhile back...