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[changeling]

I'm still pissed at my piece I did for the workshop.

Because it was bad.

That's not me fishing for complements, that's me actually being honest about my own work. I was not happy with it in any way, shape or form. And I don't like putting that sort of shit into a public forum which doesn't know me or what I'm capable of. I can't do that with my writing. It's too important to me.

I like every strong impression I elicit with my writing. I loved the fact that I scared Liam and Nat with the torture scene from the novel I'm still frickin' writing. I love it when I'm happy with something I've written (like Adam's dream sequence from the aforementioned bloody sounds-like-I'm-being-pretentious wish-I-could-just-finish-the-fucker-already novel). I love coming back to something I've written well, and having that warm glow that comes from the distance you develop to a piece, and realising it's yours, and you did well.

The problem with your own work is that you can't get distance from it to the same way someone else can. Often with Wackiness, I have to run a script by Nat, because I've gone through it in my head so many times, and rewritten it and tweaked it, that it's become too familiar. I'm no longer sure that it's funny.

I'm going to email Jennie, and ask her if I can workshop again. Because dammit, 19 is far too late to start to develop a neurotic inner critic when it comes to writing.

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[gadge.livejournal.com]

Seriously? It wasn't that bad, there was just too little of it to really judge. More to work with would mean we'd have more to talk about.

Oh, and I still like the idea of five year old menaces, but that's just me...

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

's just a personal thing...being one's own worst critic, sort of thing, I suppose...once I write more I'll probably like it more. :)

Problem with five-year-old menaces is that they've been done - think "Dennis the Menace", "Home Alone" and a billion other irritatingly cute Hollywood movies. Eloise (from the book series) is fun, but she's six. And has a tortoise, if I remember correctly.

[gadge.livejournal.com]

Uh, no, those five year olds create mayhem by a) acident or b) to protect themselves. Not because it's just plain fun - that's more the domain of the kids on Malcolm in the Middle. Plus, Eloise and Madeline, though mischievous, aren't truly troublemakers.

But the idea of five years going into bars and starting fights they can win? That hasn't been done.

And if you don't do it, I'm gonna. &8-)

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

Madeleine is irritating. I want to do...evil things I'm not going to detail because I already sound psychotic...to her.

Sounds like fun, but it's just a bit too cutesy...

Hang on...reminds me a bit of Mindy in Tonja Steele...

I'll consider it...but it'd have to be a different piece of writing, because I already have a vague idea of the story behind this snippet.

[xilonen.livejournal.com]

We're always our own worst critic.

Try not to be so hard on yourself. If the piece was really as bad as what you think then learn from making that mistake. Don't beat yourself up over it and get all depressed, I don't like seeing you like that.

You are extremely talented. That's not a compliment, it's a fact. Only you can work to realise your full potential. If you are too close to something try putting it down for a week and not think or look at it at all. Then go bak with a fresh mind and critically analyse it.

It might help to give you that distance you seem to want at the moment.

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

I wasn't happy with it because it wasn't finished. It was just...myeh.

[rhakylia.livejournal.com]

I hate being my own worst critic. And i've tried hard to change...with little if any success.
Several of my friends and family are pushing me to get some of my better stuff published...but I have such self doubt in my own writings that I cannot bring myself to do so.
I'll read up on all competitions and stuff and say yes, that's great, it's for me, I can enter that one. Then I'll go and look at my work that I have set aside for such projects and I won't be satisfied. Now I don't know if this all stems from my fear of rejection, which would be a new development in me (which shouldn't exist considering I'm cool with rejections in the drama world), or if it stems from somewhere else.

I think that my problem is, my writing is to personal to me. I need to write pieces that I detach myself from.

[delirieuse.livejournal.com]

You need to be in Writing for Performance with me and Nat. We get in touch with our inner critic. I'm not in contact with mine. We had an argument several years ago and he refuses to apologise. :)