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Mar. 4th, 2004 12:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
changelingWell. I went through my day like a zombie, evidentally.
I'm very, very tired, and it seems that this will be part of the pattern of my week. On Tuesday I have class until 9pm, and don't get home until close to 10. I then have work at 9am an hour and a bit's drive away.
Fencing was excellent, and I'm looking forward to going back next week. I think it's actually helping me with my posture a bit, which is good. I'll write a better entry about that when I'm more centred.
Steph, I met Rah at Esoteric today. She's cool.
Darketherdream, I got your card today. Thank you immensely. When I get paid and have some money, I plan on sending yours and Jess's cards.
I have not got paid by Drake today, like I planned. I'm currently subsisting on a loan from my father. I really hope I get paid soon, because I only have $3.60 left, not counting the $15 of Dad's money. This job is really not giving me enough money or hours.
I can't do everything. I'm doing too much. I need to find things to drop, and it can't be work, school, or (frankly) exercise. I'm sick of being told I'm fat and out of shape and feeling like crap, and that's not going to fucking happen this year. I'm seriously going to have to cut back on weekend activities and try and get some sleep, because sleep is apparently not a factor of my weekdays. I have consistently late nights every Monday through Thursday, and one early morning on Wednesdays. And I'm trying and I'm getting better at organisation, but I keep dropping the ball and then being told off and I'm already tired, so all it does is make me cry rather than have me be rational about things. And that's not a criticism of anyone, so please don't read anything into that. I'm just stating what's happening. I'm not trying to excuse my irrationality, I'm just acknowledging that it's there.
All I want to do is go away for a while and get over this cold that's been dogging my steps. Get a bit of sleep. Maybe I should do that this weekend. Just lock myself away.
I'm very, very tired, and it seems that this will be part of the pattern of my week. On Tuesday I have class until 9pm, and don't get home until close to 10. I then have work at 9am an hour and a bit's drive away.
Fencing was excellent, and I'm looking forward to going back next week. I think it's actually helping me with my posture a bit, which is good. I'll write a better entry about that when I'm more centred.
Steph, I met Rah at Esoteric today. She's cool.
Darketherdream, I got your card today. Thank you immensely. When I get paid and have some money, I plan on sending yours and Jess's cards.
I have not got paid by Drake today, like I planned. I'm currently subsisting on a loan from my father. I really hope I get paid soon, because I only have $3.60 left, not counting the $15 of Dad's money. This job is really not giving me enough money or hours.
I can't do everything. I'm doing too much. I need to find things to drop, and it can't be work, school, or (frankly) exercise. I'm sick of being told I'm fat and out of shape and feeling like crap, and that's not going to fucking happen this year. I'm seriously going to have to cut back on weekend activities and try and get some sleep, because sleep is apparently not a factor of my weekdays. I have consistently late nights every Monday through Thursday, and one early morning on Wednesdays. And I'm trying and I'm getting better at organisation, but I keep dropping the ball and then being told off and I'm already tired, so all it does is make me cry rather than have me be rational about things. And that's not a criticism of anyone, so please don't read anything into that. I'm just stating what's happening. I'm not trying to excuse my irrationality, I'm just acknowledging that it's there.
All I want to do is go away for a while and get over this cold that's been dogging my steps. Get a bit of sleep. Maybe I should do that this weekend. Just lock myself away.
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Date: 2004-03-03 05:50 am (UTC)You got my card!!!
Oooh. See, I am a great fan of sleep. I don't think you should sacrifice it for anything. It is so important, it runs your body down and fogs over the brain when you don't have enough...
This weekend should be just laying around sleeping, and possibly drinking tea for you.
I think that there's always a proper moment for getting things organcised (self, emotions, files, paperwork.) and that you can't really force it sometimes.
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Date: 2004-03-03 06:03 am (UTC)Tea sounds good. Sleep, tea, and meditation. No parents this week, either. Which is another bonus.