And on *my* holiday...

Guess who snogged Sarah tonight...?

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It's official! You were Zia McCabe in a past life!. You're a bit of a free spirit and don't let conventions get in the way of a good time. You tend to act first and think later, which can sometimes get you into a bit of trouble, but it also helps in making you an interesting gal! You love making music, and being onstage is one of your favourite places to be!

Mwahaha!! Or maybe Zia McCabe was me in a past life.
Now if only I knew who she was...

Back to the Sarah situation...

Well, as some of us know, I'm far more likely to get intoxicated in a "party atmosphere" than actually imbibing alcohol. The same it seems with Sarah, So, despite the conflicting messages I've been getting from her for the past...month? months? we kissed last night. Definitely a mutual thing.

*flashback*
Last Tuesday, I went back to Sarah's place as we often did. Mine was too far from the city - that's her excuse. However, the front room I usually sleep in was being used by her sister...something she'd forgotten. So we shared her bed. I woke early in the morning with Sarah spooned against me, holding me like her life depended on it...I didn't sleep well that morning.
*/flashback*

*She* suggested it...like I'd be game enough to make the first move. I sort of started it with "I think Justin thinks we're going out" and Sarah's response that we play on that a bit. Watch him suffer.

My heart's beating quickly just thinking about it.

But of course today the cold light of the afternoon makes everything more complicated. I'm terrified that this is going to go the way my relationship with Kelly went, and I'm left in the slipstream wondering what went wrong, what changed. It's painful when you want to kiss someone, tell them how much they mean to you, and they seem uninterested in so much as touching you.

Ngack. Work tomorrow. Then uni. And I'm terrified of seeing Sarah again.

And on top of all that, even if things were...different between us the way they were Saturday night, we have to worry about how it'll affect Liam, our best friend. Each of us would at least be grievously injured for him. And as much as we joked about shocking him, neither of us wants to hurt him. So if something has changed between us, we have to find a way of telling Liam.

*sigh* Even when I'm supposed to be happy I'm miserable and things are far too complicated.

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Oh, and now I know. Zia is one of the Dandy Warhols. All hail the Warhols.

This is a right mess you've got me in Sarah...

(Apologies for the f-ed-up quote)

I'm sorry, but scared doesn't really cut it. I almost wish last night had been the dream I thought it must have been briefly this morning when I woke up, then I wouldn't be as terrified as I am now waiting for tomorrow afternoon.

*sigh*

Welcome back to Radio SUCK..

That's Screwed Up Chicks & Kittens, for those of you just tuning in. I'm your DJ for the hour, Katreus. And the next song is dedicated to me. It's Paul McDermott's Sad Fuckers of the World. And coming up next is Placebo's Taste in Men. That's dedicated to my special someone out there, Sarah. Please don't make any jokes about the fact you've been single for too long, cos that cuts real bad, hun.

So, back to that demon with the angel's voice, Paul *fuck me* McDermott...